PLEASE TELL ME IN THE COMMENTS IF I OWE YOU STUFF!

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First of all, Emily's been an asshole, everyone. I mean, I've been an asshole, I still am.

I left dA soon after we've reached our goal and never really updated you with what happened, for which I'm genuinely sorry. And here's what's been going on.

Before you guys ask, no, I did not ran away with the money and/or lie to you about the reasons why I asked for them. I'd just never do that, these are not things you lie about, these are not situations you fake to get some cash. I'm not that type of a person. I am an asshole though, for leaving you, for owing a lot of you a lot of art. And you all have your fullest right to be angry at me.

The family got the money, escaped the dangerous area and moved to another city safely. My sweetheart is safe and sound, and I owe that to all of you who helped, who donated, who prayed and showed support. She asked me to thank all of you, to tell you that she never expected to get all that support and that she's forever grateful to each and every single one of you. Even better news: she now moved to Kiev where I'm going to meet her on the 12th of June for the first time after more than 1,5 years of a long distance relationship! Imagine that, we've waited for so long and now there's just one week and we'll be together! I'm the happiest I've ever been in my life!

This autumn-winter was a tough period for me because of.. everything. My sweetheart was very depressed, so was I, add apathy to that, worries about my future, family issues, relationship issues, all the study I had to do but just couldn't, a strong will to just stay in my bed and do nothing for the rest of my life, a lack of inspiration and power to do anything, and that's my shitty excuse for leaving all of you. I couldn't go back, I couldn't do many things I used to enjoy, art being one of them. I've had (and I still have) a hard time not only maintaining friendships but just talking to people, I got tired very easily, I've been weak and pathetic, but something has happened not that long ago. I GRADUATED FROM THIS HELL.

I'm done with my exams and now I am free! Free from everything that's been bugging me so much for years, free to live my life, and I finally feel like things are getting so much better and even better things are yet to come. Some issues are still there, but the worst is in the past. I feel like I've literally left prison in so many ways. And it is glorious! I've also grown up, cut my hair short and stopped wearing braces in case you needed that update, haha. I've been going through my old deviations and journals and just wondering if it was me. I feel like now I'm so different, and hopefully it's for the best.

But there's also one thing I want to be free from before I finally get to live my own life. And that's all the stuff I owe you. I know most of the things I owe, but just to be completely sure I don't miss anything - PLEASE TELL ME IF I OWE YOU STUFF. Right here. In the comments. Anything, be it a commission, a prize, an adopt, a reply to your message, if you want that. Please. I'll make sure to get to each and every single one of you, I don't want to be the irresponsible little shit I used to be anymore.

I love you all so much and I'll probably never know what did I do to deserve all of you, you're the greatest, most wonderful people on Earth.

Have a glorious day, everyone,
Emily ❤

P.S. Yes, I've changed my username. Good old ShimiArt is good, but way too old for me at that point.